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Entry 22: They say you shouldn't hate...

Posted by Sherri Viner on October 31, 2017 at 12:40 AM Comments comments (0)

I sit reflecting on our Disney trip. We’ve been planning for over a year so it felt like the day would never come but now that we are past it, it feels surreal. It’s a bizarre mixture of feelings. I loved seeing Nicholas and the rest of the kids having the time of their lives. But to be honest I also have the crappy thoughts of “what if these moments are Nicholas’ firsts and his lasts.” Some may think that it is mor...

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Entry 21: Always come back

Posted by Sherri Viner on October 14, 2017 at 3:30 AM Comments comments (0)

I’ve already failed in my mission to write more frequently and it’s obvious that I need to keep working at it. I always feel better after I mind dump a little through writing because there are entirely too many sleepless nights where my mind just races with thoughts. Some are even of the coherent nature. Then the internal struggle between peace of mind and needing sleep commences, most nights lately have moved towards sleep.

I realize that most of my inner brain ...

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Entry 20: Life in the slow lane

Posted by Sherri Viner on September 28, 2017 at 12:20 AM Comments comments (0)

People are always in a rush. Every time we are out on a drive to try to get the kids to take a nap in the car, seems everyone either wants to hitch onto our tow or race us to the next set of lights. Could it be that we are so good and busy being busy that we are overlooking the simpler things? Sometimes we focus so hard on future event that we don’t actually live in the present. Really live in a moment and be able to do it in a way that ma...

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Entry 19: The profound to the ordinary and back again

Posted by Sherri Viner on September 27, 2017 at 6:55 AM Comments comments (0)

It has been sooooo long since my last entry. I’ve often had the idea to sit down and take just a few minutes to sort out all of my million thoughts and organize them enough to write something but I always manage to find an excuse as to why that wasn’t going to happen that day. It has a lot to do with the fact that I realized that life is not a compilation of events for a highlight reel or best of series. Well, at least my life isn’t. Most days there seems nothing much to...

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Entry 18: Déjà Vu & God too

Posted by Sherri Viner on December 28, 2015 at 4:05 AM Comments comments (0)

Well here I am again, we’ve been on quite the journey with many new experiences but I’m back in this all too familiar place. I know that it’s due to the looming surgery and I can feel it; they are making their way back to the surface. I realize that I’m starting to cycle through a lot of the same emotions I had going into Nicholas' first surgery even though I’m not a newb this time around. Not being a newbie just means that we know by heart where ...

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Entry 17: Life as we know it

Posted by Sherri Viner on November 3, 2015 at 2:20 PM Comments comments (0)

Seems like an eternity since my last entry. I haven’t had much of a chance to reflect and I’m just now finding myself sorting out the events, thoughts, and emotions of the past few months. I think back to the days leading up to Nicholas’ arrival and I’m struck by how much I’ve changed. I remember what I was feeling but I can only see it from a distance. All the darkness, doubt, and anxiousness was absolutely real but when you move forward...

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Entry 16: The Blur

Posted by Sherri Viner on August 7, 2015 at 5:05 AM Comments comments (0)

It’s been a while since my last entry. Despite my anxiousness to not being pregnant anymore and being able to finally meet our little guy, I'm trying to enjoy and soak in these last days of pregnancy. This task is proving to be a bit more difficult than one would think since I'm not the most patient of folks but in the back of my mind I know that once Nicholas is born, the journey ahead of us will be forever life altering. So while my days are filled with the uncomfortable aches and ...

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Entry 15: Last Holiday?

Posted by Sherri Viner on July 10, 2015 at 10:30 AM Comments comments (1)

I was doing some reflecting about this past Fourth of July as it was our last holiday before Nicholas’ arrival. We are so blessed to be Americans in which we are able to give Nicholas an opportunity for a better quality of life. It seems only fitting that our last holiday was Independence Day, a celebration of freedom and liberty built around a nation that started with what seemed as the impossible dream. America had very humble and scary beginnings but persevered as a nation of peop...

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Entry 14: What the Heart Wants

Posted by Sherri Viner on June 24, 2015 at 12:10 AM Comments comments (0)

About 8 weeks left until my due date and I’m feeling the third trimester woes. At this stage, I’m beginning to feel as if I’m never going to not be pregnant. Seeing my feet from a standing position, throwing back a cold beer or diet coke, sipping on a hot cup of coffee in the morning, and taking an overwhelmingly hot bubble bath while drinking a glass of wine, those all seem but a distant memory now. As I await fate and the arrival of our baby boy, I’m also saying g...

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Entry 13: Que Sera

Posted by Sherri Viner on June 18, 2015 at 9:00 AM Comments comments (0)

If you’ve read my previous blog posts then you may already know that Jimmy had surprised me with some heart shaped jewelry. One in particular was going to be a custom made heart shaped pendant with a heart diamond in the center that was being made to appear as if it was beating. Initially, the jeweler tacked the diamond in the center stationary so I could get an idea of what it would look like. We were told it was going to take a week or so to complete and I was so excited to see the...

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